Today was a very nice blessed Friday and that’s not something ordinary cause i’ve had some tough Fridays recently..

I woke up  at nine to find the kids and mom awake from seven am..they were nice enough to give me those extra two hours..i had breakfast with them and let me tell you..i DON’T eat shortly after i wake up..but they were glad we’re together on our day off so i didn’t want to disappoint them..it was nice..as always..Allah blessed me with the cutest kids..thank Allah..

I had to go work on something for an hour or so and i returned quickly to find Jojo..my sweet girl crying non stop wanting to see her dad..i rained her with hugs and kisses and i tried calling him several times as i tried for months..i had no answer so i figured it would be best to take them out..

Dressed them and everything and as i was just putting them in the car i had a phone call from their DAD..and he was coming to see them for two hours..

I can’t Begin to describe my feelings for gratitude for Allah’s mercy on them and my heart that broke every time they wanted him and he refused..so thank Allah the greatest the news drove them crazy..bouncing up and down..so excited and happy

I dropped them to where he wanted them and i saw him for the first time in months and the weired thing was that i smiled..waved bye bye..felt ABSOLUTELY nothing..i’m not mad at him..i didn’t ache..i wasn’t happy..not unhappy..Nothing!!

Just as if i knew someone and passed by him…mom was surprised and asked me later..Didn’t you even feel bad about him having his woman with him in the car..didn’t it bother you??!!

And i replied her..not really!!

But..now that i think of it..if i had feelings for him i wouldn’t have left him..so..so!!

i was cheered that the kids were thrilled to see him..and i thought i should have a nice time with mom during those couple of hours..

We went to my all time favorite place..Alain Le notre..cafe..

WE ate a nice meal for lunch..and drank my fave. cappuccinoo ..talked a lot..opened my heart and told her in details what’s going on with me lately…how i finally found some peace..and how i want to indulge more from life but with baby steps..Right ones!!

She was so happy and satisfied with how i felt and set my mind to..she opened up as well and told me that she gave me a space to get out of the freaking state i was in cause she knew i had to be lost for a while before i Begin collecting myself again..

We talked Faith too..Allah as our only savior and shelter at all times..smoothly she encouraged me towards calling again..but without pushing..that was too early for me..and that i know..

What a wise,kind and smart lady!!

I felt great with mom..with the day..

The two hours passed quickly..we returned home..had the happy kids again..fed them..and at about six..they were asleep as usual..but the new thing is that i’m beginning to have more sleep myself..i even take afternoon naps when ever i can…

 That was too much nice feelings and blessings for a day..

Some Friday:)