Pictures

I have pictures of myself doing stuff, going places and feeling a certain kind of emotion…pictures that i lived but alone and have always sensed the emptiness of not having the right Person to share them with.

I have those pictures now…I have them in my mind flashing from now and then…beautiful pictures…

Sometimes people long for a certain feeling they never experienced before yet they believe in their hearts it exists.

Sometimes people long for a feeling they once had and tasted…they long for it because they miss having it.

And sometimes people indulge in anything that would give them some sort of pleasure but with no feelings involved…those type chose not to carry the burden of feelings and the fragile state it leaves us in.

I have experienced feelings…I have chosen not to practice any meaningless/ feeling-less action no matter how fun it may seem…I long for the feeling I never experienced yet in my heart I’ve always believed it existed…

I long for it because of one reason and one reason only…frankly and honestly…because I now sensed an echo of it in some one’s eyes…I know he has what it takes…and i really long to feel it just because HE stirs it.

I have many pictures in my mind…their tunes are in my heart and their breeze move my hair and fills me with ecstasy…

I am not a simple minded person though, and that brings me so much worries…I never think of something going on smooth…never want something and be sure it will come true…yes, when it comes to my personal matters, i am pessimistic, and previous disappointments are no excuse for that…

Now, as I have the pictures…Now, that i have the luxury to think they might become real…I want to be open and optimistic and believe that i will be hearing the tunes, feeling the breeze and sensing the complete emotion.

Chances are…actually i might…

“A”, what the heck have you done to my mind??

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New beginings..

Well..

I’m starting over and having a new blog along with a new begining..

See that header..up..above..this is my new mental home..i need it this small and cosey and this pure..

May this new blog witness the new begining i aim to have ..